self depravation 
I will not, I can not. 
Last night it occurred to me, in the subtlest of ways, that I deprive myself. And that somehow, the  weakness of "not" has decided the fate of my imagination. 
Good to know. 
Where's that mentality of puppy mortality?
In the midst of a 65 hour work week, barely able to wake in the morning let alone, string together sentences.
Wednesday, October 03, 2001
at 10:38 PM