sometimes everything in the whole world takes a step sideways, and there is this view of what is, was, and went. grasping for it means reaching for what is already there. I haven't written much lately because I just got what I got when I wished for it, and realized it wasn't what I wanted. And all the sudden I'm a little kid all over again. but that's totally ok, I see little kids everyday.

update: I'm going to live in San Francisco, same address. and the junkie gets to knock me around a bit longer, and I owe Lorna a glass of champagne, (her tradition, every time you fall off a horse you have to buy a glass of champagne for the group you rode with.) It's the first of of many.

It's a fucking blessing that I got to choose between moving to NY or working it out here. It's a total dream that I had to struggle between my two most beloved city mouse country mouse personalities, in true Gemini style.
Okay,