change change is good
"conversations about conversations end conversation."
do and talk about, quit and try. The slow brew and constant stir is showing results and I am restless because of it. I quit smoking, I can't drink, I want to go back to school. Moving here was the best thing for me.
I've been smoking longer than I haven't, it just seemed like the right thing to do. I didn't foresee the unencouragement. Nobody likes a quitter he says, at least this has nothing to do with him and I can just tell myself this is really hard. It's not discouragement, it's just "when you quit smoking, you don't smoke." I don't know if this is the result of more oxygen to the brain but I keep saying these really simple obvious things.
I can't drink. This is most disturbing to me, yet not, although when my grownup friends just drink and smoke I begin to look like a yoga instructor sipping on cran-seltzers at the bar. At least I eat meat. I can't drink not because of the smoking thing, boy I sure would resent smoking if that were the case. A night of drinking, even if I have just two and I am depressed the next morning. It's horrible. Some people drink because they are depressed. Maybe I will take up yoga.
Back to school means catching up with math. About 4 years of it.
more later, back to work.